Good Evening y'all!
Deviating from the polish for a post. I need to vent and get some stuff out there. I hope this doesn't seem like a sob story. This genre of post seems to be common in the polish world.
I don't know if anyone has noticed that the url of my blog is 'neurogalaxy', which has nothing to do at all with polish. That's because this blog was originally for my personal use, and it was called 'A Neurotic's Guide to the Galaxy'.
I've spent my entire life being reclusive, introverted, and generally speaking a pariah. Ever since I was a small child I was a square peg in a round hole of 'normal' children. I always knew internally that something was wrong with just my attitude. I refused to speak, in fear I would be saying the wrong thing, insulting people accidentally, or making myself look like a fool. My parents would tell me by not speaking it made me look 'snotty', and that I was being plain rude. No amount of my protests would change this. I kept very few friends, and kept people at a distance. I never felt worthy, or valued.
When I was in university and had more control of my life, I sought help for my anxiety (as I now know that's what it was). I was put on medication, and it's marginally helped. Then the roller coaster of depression started.
When I started university, I found friends that seemed to get me - that quickly changed. Looking back, I chose to keep friends that weren't in my best interest because they added fun to my life. They weren't the people that would be there through thick and thin. In my last year at school I completely shut myself out of everyone's life. I never left my room except to eat. For some reason no one I was living with noticed this, and I spiraled out of control. At the end of the semester I finally reached out to my mom in a letter, and they got me out of there ASAP. I can't thank her enough for saving my life.
After this happened, I took a year off. I worked and lived at home. I had no one but my parents. It was almost worse than the scenario before. I slept a lot. A LOT.
When I was still at home, in April 2011, I discovered polish. It was something that made me happy again. It started as a crutch, to convince me to go to work. Knowing I would get a package convinced me internally that the work day was worth it. That getting up out of bed was worth it. It caused my parents lots of ire, because it was a lot of money spent - but I think it was well spent. I mean, I don't buy as much as I used to, but I still imbibe now and then.
The polish community has been a very accepting and safe place for me. I mean, by nature I am not a group joiner or an active participant. However it has gotten me out of my shell and I am very thankful for that! I even got the nerve to join a Secret Santa group - naturally I think I didn't give enough. I swap with wonderful people. I meet creative people who inspire me and give me ideas. I like being unique in my classes and having something that makes me stand out. I like reading blogs and knowing there are people out there just like me.
Thank you polish, for saving my life.
Showing posts with label The Erin Files. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Erin Files. Show all posts
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Quick Update!
Hey guys....I'm going to start blogging again I promise! I've been schooling and moving and not really painting my nails much. That will change! I got a new camera, new polishes to show you and I'm starting hardcore on Saturday with a new nail challenge!
I'm participating in Erica from Erica's Nails and More's 10 day nail art challenge! I figured it's a good way to get going again. It also has lots of tutorials I'd like to try, like galaxy nails!
I also got my first Catrice polishes and plan on doing a Catrice week once the challenge is done. Thanks for being patient!
I'm participating in Erica from Erica's Nails and More's 10 day nail art challenge! I figured it's a good way to get going again. It also has lots of tutorials I'd like to try, like galaxy nails!
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Epic Fail
So...that 30 day challenge...right
It's still happening - I was just sick as a dog for my entire study break! Nails weren't a priority....sorry polish people.
I'll be back soon to pick up where I left off.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Polish Meme?
Hey Y'all - I've been waiting for sun to photo my nails....so I'll leave you with a meme to tie you over. I've been addicted to them all week.
Friday, January 27, 2012
A Quick Funny
So...I just got new butter LONDON...I hate you nail gods, for giving me a nasty broken nail.
As I figure out how to swatch them...enjoy this lovely gem :)
Sunday, January 1, 2012
New Years Resolutions?
I'm not entirely certain why I suck so much at this whole blogging thing. I think it's because my swatches are junk. But I've decided this year, I'm going to do it right! I'm sitting on a stupid amount of nail polish I could be sharing with the world. So as soon as I get back to my apartment, I'm going start 2012: A Blogging Adventure! I'm going to 'borrow' my boyfriends super camera too, so my swatches actually look like something. Stay tuned folks!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
A Bit About Me...
I think that I can best be described using this quiz I stole from my facebook. Original, I know.
1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?: no, that is a stupid question
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?: 3 years
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?: my mom buys me smoothies all the time, does that count?
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?: constantly, I'm a disaster
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?: everyday is a work out, both mentally and physically
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?: clothes, nail polish...
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?: marshmallows
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: eyes
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?: hmm, A Favour House Atlantic - Coheed and Cambria
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?: on a farm outside of Rodney
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: West Elgin Secondary School
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: Telus
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: American Eagle
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?: My farm research job - I'm working on my 5th summer
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?: yes, stylized dice made magical by nail polish!
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: Yes I do, but that's usually when I've been drinking...
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: My cousin Sara's
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: I absolutely hate using the phone, so I'd probably text my friend Erin.
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: I'm not entirely convinced I have one.
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: Arby's fo sho
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: that my grandma likes it when I visit
22. FAVOURITE POWER RANGER: The yellow one, because she had dark hair like me
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?: I'm a fan of coffee shops that never kick you out
24. CAN YOU COOK?: kinda sorta maybe.... not
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: a blue pontiac vibe
26. BEST KISSER?: you know, I think that's not answerable
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: I cried when I found out that Chris Meloni was leaving Law and Order SVU...I'm obsessed with that show
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: baked beans (yams and squash are close behind)
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: uhm....my...eyes I guess
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: probably my weight, and my initial shyness around new people
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: 8 - 5:30
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?: The Wizard of Oz
34. CAN YOU SING?: I've been told I can
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?: I saw Three Days Grace last fall
36. LAST KISS?: February
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: No Strings Attached
38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?: my purse? actually I forget that all the time. I can only answer that with myself.
39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?: NYC
40. HOW DO YOU BREAK UP WITH SOMEONE?: nicely.
41. DO YOU BELIEVE IN UGLY PEOPLE?: yes, yes I do
42. WHAT WOULD MAKE YOU HAVE A ONE-NIGHT STAND?: Nothing actually, I'm convinced that those are a horrible idea
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?: laptop
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?: Dave Chapelle
45. DO YOU SMOKE?: no, that's gross
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?: I'm usually clothed, yes
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: me, myself and I
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: if you want them to, they can
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?: Just once, and I wasn't even really aware that's what was going on
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?: french toast
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: not straight
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:scrambled..and only scrambled
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: only when it's right
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: My mom
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?: Again, my mom - I really hate the phone so I rarely ever answer it
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: From my friend Jenna asking why I wasn't at work
57. HAVE YOU EVER THROWN UP ON A ROLLER COASTER? nope
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 2
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: Pyjamas!!
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: kinda
63. CAN YOU SWIM?: yes I can
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?: cookie dough
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?: no more than any other person
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I have a dent in my skull...from a badminton racquet
67. ARE YOU COMFORTABLE WITH YOUR BODY?: hell no
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: no I have not
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON: spring
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?: I laugh at stupid things all the time
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?: 5:30, because I'm a sicky
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?: snow? and snow days?
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: Feb 2010
74. LINGERING REGRET?: Not telling people what's actually on my mind
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: Snickers...my cat
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?: overrated
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?: Looking for an apartment!! W00!
78. BIRTHDATE: November 27th
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE DOING RIGHT NOW: sleeping, I always wish I was sleeping
80. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SOMEONE ON THE STREET HANDED YOU A ZIPLOCK BAG FULL OF AIR?:I would check them into an asylum, because it's probably a crazy hobo man
81. WOULD YOU HOLD A SNOWMAN AT HAIRDRYER-POINT FOR ITS WALLET? Random, but if I was in the right mood I would
82. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT TWIZZLERS PULL 'N' PEELS COULD BE USED AS ROPE BONDAGE EQUIPMENT? : no, they aren't strong enough - I took physics once
83. WHAT WOULD YOU NAME YOUR HERMIT CRAB? Sherman
84. IF YOU HAD PRINTED TISSUES, WHAT WOULD THEY DEPICT SO YOU COULD BLOW YOUR NOSE ON IT? Math, math is garbage.
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP? Why yes, yes I am
86. IF YOU HAD TO SHAVE ANY PART OF YOUR BODY (OTHER THAN PARTS YOU ALREADY SHAVE), WHICH PART WOULD YOU CHOOSE?: weird question....
87. ARE YOU SMILING?: no, because my face hurts as it is
88. IF YOU COULD HAVE YOUR LOST GREYHOUND TICKET FOUND BY ANYONE, WHO WOULD IT BE?: myself? because then no one would know I lost it?
89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW: I miss...my coworkers?
90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?:
Probably Cuba, or the Dominican
91. IF YOU WERE GAY, WOULD THAT BE OK? I suppose it would have to be.
92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?: no - I'm going into my second post-grad
93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: yes, and it's crushing me
94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?: Addison
95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?: Hot pink, with polka dots
96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?: No, I live in Canada not the States
97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH? No
98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?: I wish
99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER: no, but Brett can be girly at times
100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?: no
101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?: no
102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL? Yes, I have
103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW? yes. Isn't that going to always be the answer to this question?
104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING? earrings, as always
105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY? Eat me some Arby's!
1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?: no, that is a stupid question
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?: 3 years
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?: my mom buys me smoothies all the time, does that count?
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?: constantly, I'm a disaster
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?: everyday is a work out, both mentally and physically
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?: clothes, nail polish...
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?: marshmallows
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: eyes
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?: hmm, A Favour House Atlantic - Coheed and Cambria
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?: on a farm outside of Rodney
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: West Elgin Secondary School
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: Telus
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: American Eagle
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?: My farm research job - I'm working on my 5th summer
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?: yes, stylized dice made magical by nail polish!
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: Yes I do, but that's usually when I've been drinking...
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: My cousin Sara's
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: I absolutely hate using the phone, so I'd probably text my friend Erin.
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: I'm not entirely convinced I have one.
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: Arby's fo sho
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: that my grandma likes it when I visit
22. FAVOURITE POWER RANGER: The yellow one, because she had dark hair like me
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?: I'm a fan of coffee shops that never kick you out
24. CAN YOU COOK?: kinda sorta maybe.... not
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: a blue pontiac vibe
26. BEST KISSER?: you know, I think that's not answerable
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: I cried when I found out that Chris Meloni was leaving Law and Order SVU...I'm obsessed with that show
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: baked beans (yams and squash are close behind)
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: uhm....my...eyes I guess
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: probably my weight, and my initial shyness around new people
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: 8 - 5:30
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?: The Wizard of Oz
34. CAN YOU SING?: I've been told I can
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?: I saw Three Days Grace last fall
36. LAST KISS?: February
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: No Strings Attached
38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?: my purse? actually I forget that all the time. I can only answer that with myself.
39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?: NYC
40. HOW DO YOU BREAK UP WITH SOMEONE?: nicely.
41. DO YOU BELIEVE IN UGLY PEOPLE?: yes, yes I do
42. WHAT WOULD MAKE YOU HAVE A ONE-NIGHT STAND?: Nothing actually, I'm convinced that those are a horrible idea
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?: laptop
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?: Dave Chapelle
45. DO YOU SMOKE?: no, that's gross
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?: I'm usually clothed, yes
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: me, myself and I
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: if you want them to, they can
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?: Just once, and I wasn't even really aware that's what was going on
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?: french toast
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: not straight
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:scrambled..and only scrambled
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: only when it's right
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: My mom
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?: Again, my mom - I really hate the phone so I rarely ever answer it
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: From my friend Jenna asking why I wasn't at work
57. HAVE YOU EVER THROWN UP ON A ROLLER COASTER? nope
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 2
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: Pyjamas!!
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
"Small town has left me dead I cant stay for the blame and the broken hearted With my back against the wall"61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?: raspberry, but I skip the PB part
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: kinda
63. CAN YOU SWIM?: yes I can
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?: cookie dough
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?: no more than any other person
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I have a dent in my skull...from a badminton racquet
67. ARE YOU COMFORTABLE WITH YOUR BODY?: hell no
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: no I have not
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON: spring
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?: I laugh at stupid things all the time
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?: 5:30, because I'm a sicky
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?: snow? and snow days?
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: Feb 2010
74. LINGERING REGRET?: Not telling people what's actually on my mind
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: Snickers...my cat
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?: overrated
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?: Looking for an apartment!! W00!
78. BIRTHDATE: November 27th
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE DOING RIGHT NOW: sleeping, I always wish I was sleeping
80. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SOMEONE ON THE STREET HANDED YOU A ZIPLOCK BAG FULL OF AIR?:I would check them into an asylum, because it's probably a crazy hobo man
81. WOULD YOU HOLD A SNOWMAN AT HAIRDRYER-POINT FOR ITS WALLET? Random, but if I was in the right mood I would
82. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT TWIZZLERS PULL 'N' PEELS COULD BE USED AS ROPE BONDAGE EQUIPMENT? : no, they aren't strong enough - I took physics once
83. WHAT WOULD YOU NAME YOUR HERMIT CRAB? Sherman
84. IF YOU HAD PRINTED TISSUES, WHAT WOULD THEY DEPICT SO YOU COULD BLOW YOUR NOSE ON IT? Math, math is garbage.
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP? Why yes, yes I am
86. IF YOU HAD TO SHAVE ANY PART OF YOUR BODY (OTHER THAN PARTS YOU ALREADY SHAVE), WHICH PART WOULD YOU CHOOSE?: weird question....
87. ARE YOU SMILING?: no, because my face hurts as it is
88. IF YOU COULD HAVE YOUR LOST GREYHOUND TICKET FOUND BY ANYONE, WHO WOULD IT BE?: myself? because then no one would know I lost it?
89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW: I miss...my coworkers?
90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?:
Probably Cuba, or the Dominican
91. IF YOU WERE GAY, WOULD THAT BE OK? I suppose it would have to be.
92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?: no - I'm going into my second post-grad
93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: yes, and it's crushing me
94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?: Addison
95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?: Hot pink, with polka dots
96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?: No, I live in Canada not the States
97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH? No
98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?: I wish
99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER: no, but Brett can be girly at times
100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?: no
101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?: no
102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL? Yes, I have
103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW? yes. Isn't that going to always be the answer to this question?
104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING? earrings, as always
105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY? Eat me some Arby's!
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